just finished my 43rd book of the year; currently helping administer an idea for a confederation of websites and we just got our Loomio set up

  • coyotino [he/him]@beehaw.org
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    2 months ago

    it sounds like you are really going through a lot, and tbh i really admire your ability to maintain a playful attitude through it all!

    RE: the games: I’m racking my brain and struggling a little bit to think of suggestions (not that you asked for them). I remember I was able to get Gothic II working on an old netbook back in the day, so older games like Space Empires are def the way to go!

    I’m sorry about your anxiety issues 😔 I also have a (much less severe) anxiety disorder and am blessed to have meds that dramatically improved that for me. I find a lot of times, when I am anxious about something, it is really hard to get going but then much easier once i force myself to do the thing. It sounds like that may not be the case for you, but idk. Coping is a complicated system of tricking myself into starting things before i have time to anxious-spin about it.

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      2 months ago

      I don’t really have a clear idea of “who I am” but I’m clearly some kinda weird goofy wiggly thingy at my core 😅 wiggles to illustrate

      Also my thing is like yours, I clear up (or think I do) pretty quick once I’ve started. It’s just terrifying to start anything that isn’t very familiar :-\ I don’t quite even know the rules for that familiarity threshold. Bleh! 'Course, judging by my amazingly high blood pressure when I started getting that treated… could be I just get past a threshold and go from “super anxy” to “so anxy I can’t even feel it any more” 🤷 Is weird. Am weird. extra shrug to illustrate very-shrugness