Think I’m going to try and cook a one pan dumpling dish that keeps coming up on my Instagram for dins tonight, seems like it’ll be a great night to try out a creamy curry dumpling dish!
MH and academics plus a whole lot of complaining
Yep so I got the confirmation that I’ve failed two subjects because of late submissions. Submitting things late and just being numb to deadlines is a real problem for me.
This whole uni thing doesn’t feel real anymore. Nothing does really. I am so sick of being on the verge of panic every single day, and not being able to sleep. I’ve been putting way too much pressure on myself to the point where I’m trying to get a H1 assignment of me, in a couple of days, in an attempt to reduce the impact of the late penalty. But I am getting absolutely nothing out.
I love the uni, I love the course, I’ve met so many wonderful people, and I would be giving up a social opportunity that is hard to get as you get older and meet fewer people. Despite all the hiccups, tears and questioning, I think I want to stay in the course because I can’t see myself doing anything else. I think getting this degree and doing this career will make me more resilient, and a better person. I don’t want to “give up” and just get any random job or stay in retail forever.
So hopefully I won’t get kicked out, and worst case scenario, I’ll just have to repeat a couple of units and spend an extra few months at uni.
I’ll see my psych again to ask for advice, maybe try out ADHD meds because I can’t continue being numb to deadlines and getting long extensions that just delay things even further, and as soon as I get an assignment, at least taking a look at it. This is jeopardising my future career. I feel like ADHD meds won’t work and will suck for my heart function. Surely, there’s another way.
“Just start the bloody things earlier!”Before the adhd meds, I washed dishes in a Cafe and was bad at it.
Post adhd meds and with the help of a friend to get my foot in the door, I run a team of IT professionals.
That big of a difference.
Wow. That’s a really big difference. Good on you.
I’ll get onto it. Hopefully there’s something out there that’s not going to kill my heart and worsen my anxiety.
Heartrate settles after a few weeks.
Careful dosing ensure anxiety is at a minimum.
We can only hope. And I’m worried about sleep too, vyvanse kept me awake for far too long.
I have a psychiatry appointment booked in for August! Pretty far away, but it is what it is. I shall bring up these concerns with them.
If anxiety is an issue for you, you can ask your GP for diazepam explaining your concerns.
Like ADHD meds, they’re a single day solution unlike SSRIs and SNRIs which take a month or so to work with tons of side effects.
Negatives of diazepam: you may lose your filter and speak your mind. It also highly psychologically addictive because it near instantly solves the problem.
Note: I am not a doctor and this isn’t medical advice, but it is worth asking your GP on the topic which you wouldn’t have to wait until August to sort.
Not just psychologically addictive… They are one of the few drugs with potentially lethal withdrawal effects. The physical withdrawals are fucked too
This is why you do not ever abuse it and only use it in emergencies for actual debilitating anxiety, not every day. Playing with depressing the neurotransmitter GABA consistently is always risky. But there’s a reason why benzos are used to treat alcohol withdrawal (alcohol being another GABA depressant).
I think I’d prefer to avoid benzos, but thanks for the suggestion. I think much of the anxiety will dissipate when the academic stress is gone.
Unfucking things that are now fucked, that you tried to keep unfucked, is fucked.
It’s only 8:15am :(
That’s quite a start to the day. I hope things work out
So well put, I am very familiar with this feeling. Good luck.
🤝
Hang in there
Good luck man ❤️
It’s a crumpet kinda morning
I’ve created a kind of cheat sheet for uni with references to advice I’ve read, teaching theories etc. I was using a google sheets spreadsheet for it but dot points and images aren’t formatting properly for my liking.
Does anyone have a suggestion for a cloud-based note taking option? I am about to try OneNote but thought Id see if there are other options too.
I did this with OneNote. I have different sections for references, behaviour management, teaching ideas for different subjects, feedback given.
It’s actually working out quite well for me. At least so far. I’ll stick with it and see how it goes.
Having it on my phone is also helpful. Especially when I do placements and need to think up quick games or just reminders about techniques and strategies I will no doubt forget in the moment.
Obsidian, notesnook. There a fey lemmy groups that are pretty helpful with anti google / Microsoft questions.
Will take a look. Thank you.
I’ve tried Joplin and it has been a pretty good Evernote replacement. You use your own cloud storage, like onedrive, to store your notes, so you don’t have to worry about storage restrictions like what happened to Evernote
I put on a goosebumps 90s episode last night to watch with little one and man the 90s melancholy/nostalgia/wistfulness hit me so hard. Oh to be able to go back to that time.
Oh a side note, I love how Slappy scares my 9 year old. She talks tough about not being scared of anything, but as soon as Slappy moves his head she’s clinging to me like she’s about to fall off a mountain lol.
Fair call, Slappy is scary as hell!
They’re releasing a new dummy based on the OG book Slappy (I think). Definitely adding it to my collection.
Cat TMI, poop talk
Melbcat has started having frequent little accidents and while I’m hoping that it’s only temporary I’m scared that she might be losing control of her bowels.
She’s still seeming mostly comfortable, bright and alert, still eating and washing herself. No current urinary incontinence. She’s stopped crying since this started.
I’m just spiraling because I’m aware age is catching up to her and I’m terrified of the future. I feel about Melbcat the way people feel about their child.
I can see the rain outside and I’m glad I stayed home. The other woman in my team got sick from being in the cold and rain in this place just last week and everyone has gone back in similar conditions.
I’m using today as an open day to work on things I’ve been meaning to before other demands pulled me in other directions.
One of my apps seems to think I’m going to the Cheesecake Shop every time I go to the gym. I wish, app, I wish (okay probably not).
I hear the kids call ass cake these days so if you’re doing squats you could be going to the cake shop.
A Canadian celebration breakfast put on by young Mr Seagoon , we had pancakes and maples syrup and fresh coffee. Tonight it will ne Canadian mac n cheese. With crumbled crisps baked on top. It’s a Canadian thing.
Then a walk n on the dog beach with Miss Seagoon and Bear the Irish terrier. I picked up ten new kinds of shells.
here is Miss Seagoon and Bear
then shopping in the city, a quick bite and we went to Clock museum, which was a weird place.
Now home for a few days while the big storm blows through.😊
I love the young Seagoons so much 🥹
Naw. They love you too!
Can you please please please try the Bluff oysters and get back to us.
Loving that beach view!
This is great thanks!
What a wholesome day, I am so happy that you’re getting this time with them. What made the clock museum weird?
Enjoy the downtime!
to be surrounded by so many weird looking clocks , many ticking, chiming was just weird
That’s like my mum’s house.
Grump my order was for 2 packages each containing 2, not 1 pack of 2. Let us see how this complaint goes…
Well that was quick. now do I reorder to complete the set or not trust the same thing to not happen again?
“I’m walking on Sunshine, wooo ohhh ohh”.
Fuck you shitty manager.
So windy here.
It’s raining here.
What’s the plan today?
Groceries done. Time to plonk on my couch and not leave home again. Miserable day out here
Left my goddamn blue cheese at aldi 😭
Time to go back.
I can’t do it… That’s God’s cheese now
I kept hearing this noise at night and I thought it was the sound of some electrical thing outside. I have confirmed it’s a possum. Sounds like me screaming with no high pitched noise.
My dad was great for putting up a pergola outside, but the possums love running up it.
