The nap was a bad idea, but I guess I needed it.
Grounding myself with the cat, though I’m floating away.
Writing here helps, sorry for dumping a lot :/
Put a fork in me, I’m done.
The nap was a bad idea, but I guess I needed it.
Grounding myself with the cat, though I’m floating away.
Writing here helps, sorry for dumping a lot :/
Had a nap from 3 to 8. But I’m still dissociating. A strange sense of doom looms over my head and has infiltrated my heart and my guts, I feel strange pangs in both.
Perhaps I’m just unwell, but when am I ever not unwell?
Don’t blame multiculturalism for this abomination
What the actual fuck 🤢💀
I close my eyes and all I see is you,
A silhouette of all my nightmares coming true.
You throw your weight around on me,
Getting off on all the ways I’m suffocating.
So I sink into the bed and out of my mind,
As my heart skips the beat and falls out of time.
Does your girlfriend know about your three am DM to me?
Five years out from the fallout of your fuck around and find out?
She approve of you blaming me for the pain you caused me?
Does she know what you’ve done or have you spun her a new story;
A narrative that paints you plaintive in the face of great adversity,
With me standing in as the villain in your rewritten history?
I’ll tear you apart from head to heart to watch you bleed,
Get on your knees and let me hear you beg and plead,
Reenact that scene, reenact that scene for me:
The one where I was begging you to set me free.
I want to see what you saw when you carved me into your pawn,
But revenge is a dish that’s best served cold and raw,
Do it again and I’ll bring you pain you’ve never felt before,
Like when you choked me out with your father’s belt on the hardwood floor.
I close my eyes and all I see is you,
Standing over me, my nightmares coming true.
You throw your weight around on me,
Getting off on all the ways I’m suffocating.
So I sink into the bed and out of my mind,
As my heart skips the beat and I fall out of time.
45 - very lucky guesses
Thank you, you are truly the sweetest 💜
Thank you Sea, I really appreciate your compassion and understanding 😭 you are the gem of the dt
I need to block a subreddit, because I feel called out lol. r/crappymusic, because the commenters just hate when people express themselves. Humans make music, idk what makes it crappy. I don’t make music of course, but I write, and I feel all my insecurities are heightened when I see those negative jerks shitting on people enjoying themselves on stage.
Idk, I was considering putting some of my poetry to music or a beat, and maybe consider doing like, beat poetry - because I so desperately admire the people who do that - but I feel so stupid even considering it when I’m afraid of being utterly rejected.
I suppose I need to work on my confidence and forget what people may think, but it’s hard to let go of all the voices that tell me that I’m already a failure.
I probably just need to delete fucking Reddit too sigh
My pixel can, so I imagine (hope) it’s a feature that’s common among other phones lol. No idea what you have though
A single plum floating in perfume, served in a man’s hat.
I had a massive crush on the singer of this song, just because of his voice. I wish he had sung more because it’s still hot AF to me
That is an actual banger 😍
You are not a loser at all! I dislike going to the pub for GF, too loud, too many people, too chaotic. Then it gets rowdy.
It is acceptable and 100% reasonable and okay to stay home!!
Hm, could take a motion photo or clip a video, convert to gif format and upload to Imgur.
Which is many steps 😓
Girlboss Zelda coming in hot 😍 about time she gets the spotlight.
You are old when you have a fall and end up with a broken hip and in hospital lol
No food for me, I’m about to be spun around, up and down, and have my photo taken without realising 👀
Lol! Never had that kind of call centre job 😅 just have 2 dead PC’s, one alive PC, and a modem/router that I’ve troubleshooted since 2010 haha. Just an amateur nerd type. I couldn’t tell you what settings in the router need to be, but I know you can access it 😅
One time, at my last job, a customer said ‘rooter’, and I thought ‘wtf are you saying right now?!’. Took me a hot minute to realise she meant ‘router’.
Who says ‘router’!? I died after the call 😂😭
🙏🏼💜