Haha as a child of musicians - you are so right about the egos. Great writing too. I still think/dream that an anarchist orchestra could work, with appropriate rethinking of the whole musical career climb crap… Someday, maybe, people will play for joy, and just to share that joy with each other and with others. No doucherie needed or encouraged.

I do wonder why just one person though - couldn’t it be more distributed to avoid all the ego bullshit conductors seem to almost inavoidably suffer from?

haha damn looks like I’m about to read just that part tonight, what a coincidence. skipping to not get it spoilered. but then again the whole book is just one long rant against the struggle, in the end. glad i finally got through it though - only took ten years

Probably not weird but an episode or two of MAS*H will always make me feel better

That we will continue to exploit other humans for material comfort, and justify it with more or less overt racism - black and brown lives just can’t matter, otherwise we’d have to give up our privilege and things. Make their countries unlivable and let them drown trying to get out.

Riversong - Tonto’s Expanding Head Band (Universal Paperclip)

Oh and The Shining at the time (11 y/o home alone) really messed me up as well.

Birds… 30+ years later I’m still always a bit creeped out by them, especially sea gulls.

dunno how it is where you live but gardening collectives are a great place to meet a lot of different folks (no class distinctions in the garden, i always say), get some rewarding exercise and fresh air, and often free fruits and veggies that taste so much better than store-bought stuff. i also improved my language skills significantly when i joined one in a foreign country! older ladies (the larger demographic i encountered) are always happy and patient to help you practice.