

Dude, I feel you there. Also, your parents seem to rather keep up appearances than to help their son. That’s toxic.
You shouldn’t have to fight this shit on your own. I hope you’re able to find like-minded people online that have a personal understanding of what you’re going through and are good examples heading in the right direction.
Oh, and it is a scary time to be outside nowadays. You’re more aware of what’s going on, it seems, than your folks.
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