I had today marked for cleaning the floors but it’s too nice in the sun, I’m having trouble making my way back inside to start the job.
Themed lunch notes for tomorrow after a visit to the Dandenong Botanic Gardens today.
Those are lovely. 💖
hooray for left overs from the freezer , I’m having chicken curry, rice with nuts and some chutney
This goblin is gonna curl up in bed. Too chilly for folk such as I.
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Word vomit and mental health incoming, feel free to skip
My sister told me today that my ex seemed fake the way he acted towards me. I agreed with her. It sucks that none of it was real except the love that I felt for him. Also that he seems gay. Friends also said he seemed gay. That explains a lot and would make sense.
Even though I forgive myself for staying with someone who didn’t love me, I’ve had too many coffees today and lost my three day no crying streak. I logically know that the past has happened and it isn’t worth dwelling on it. I logically know that I’m better off without the relationship, but the heart side of me kinda collapsed today. That is okay. Healing is not linear. He’s definitely not sitting there crying over me, he’s probably forgotten me by now. I just feel like I have no direction in life right now and everything feels pointless and bleak. I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m going to make it through the rest of the year. But the fact that I have no direction or clue in life really means that there are opportunities out there that I can’t see yet.
That therapy appointment couldn’t come sooner. Just have to hold on for two more weeks.
Some better things:
- tomorrow I’m going to sign up for an 8 week fitness challenge to get me back into working out. I haven’t properly worked out consistently in about a year.
- if I pass my uni stuff, I will also buy myself a drum kit or a cheap electric guitar. Watch me say all this shit and be good for three weeks and then fail.
- I don’t care if these things plus therapy are going to eat into my savings at this point, because I need a lifeline. I should probably also do one thing at a time. I’m sick of my mental state stopping me from doing the things I want to do and ultimately being the person I want to be. I’ve felt stagnant for probably the past 10 years. I’m done with feeling that way, because if I keep feeling that way, it’s going to be extra hard to get through life.
Sorry for spilling all the negative emotions.
I don’t think life has to have a direction, and if it does why not many directions, why not many goals?
small goals, mmkay.
many many hugs 😘
It’s awful you feel this way and I wouldn’t even know where to start.
If you’re considering drums, also look at electric kits. They sound and feel as good as the real thing now, and you can programming them with different sounds and practice with headphones.
Maybe even look at grooveboxes. For about $500 you can get a little device you can arrange a whole song on. They’re great if you have the time to tinker but don’t want to build up the muscle memory of an instrument
I’ve been looking into an electric kit for the sole purpose of practising with headphones.
Grooveboxes look cool and more portable. I’ll look into it more, thanks :)
Sounds like he was on his own journey. Maybe it was mutual stagnation that worked for you both.
In theory, if you invest in therapy, you’ll become more functional so be able to make more money to get those savings back up.
You will get over him. Meanwhile, distract yourself by going somewhere a bit wild that you’ve never been before.
Thanks for the tip. Got any ideas?
Vietnam!!!
I understand how you feel. The last relationship I was in turned out to be a sham of sorts. It threw me into a spiral for a little while.
I guess for me, I refuse to let someone have that kind of control over my state of mind. Easier said than done, sure, it’s hard work but I think it’s a good perspective to have.
All you can do, is live the best life that you can, because you deserve that. Because you don’t need someone shitty ruining your vibe.
The guitar/drum idea is a good one. Making music can be really cathartic. Helps get the gunk out.
Good luck 🐱
you know it’s cold when the morning birds aren’t chirping
Suitcase preferences wanted. Soft-case or hard case and why?
How much do you travel? Op shops often have plenty of serviceable suitcases.
I have a small hard case (it’s like a strand bags rip off of a Samsonite). It is smallish, hard shell, unique colour, has an expansion zip, combo lock and can be wheeled on four wheels or two. Have taken it all over the world and it’s awesome. I would go hard case everytime.
Light weight. Unless I’m going through Heathrow then something tough.
I can only tell you of my experience. I have had an Antler soft case for… I’m not even sure how long. 14 years? I’ve travelled a fair bit with it and never had any sort of issue with it. It can expand a bit which is nice. My only advice I ever give anyone is get something with 4 good wheels. 2 wheeled luggage is dumb.
23 June last year i made the first daily thread here, so like an okay partner, happy anniversary everyone for a few days ago.
Mate we’re in May. Hasn’t been a year yet.
I am pretty ill, I did say okay partner.
Accidental good partner because you’re so early
Giant sleep followed by slow walk and coffee and now I am sitting on my couch with the sun streaming in. I am starting to think the cold I had a few weeks ago might have been the Rona (I tested negative but it was about 5 days in before I got to test)… That would explain the fatigue and ongoing breathlessness and shitty feeling.
Sun and walks and sleep and lots of water today to try to kick the last of it. My floors can stay unmopped.
RSV can be pretty savage too.
WHYYYYY am I awake?!
I know why I’m awake.
I wasn’t awake until I had a bad dream :/
hugs
Oh noes! A text advising my medicare has been suspended due to unusual activity! How legitimate!!
-_-
I’m going to lose all my coles points ( i don’t shop at coles ) and I have a fine for not paying my toll ( I don’t drive )
Terrible times for us all
You know when you eat so much you can’t get comfortable in bed for a while?
I feel like I’ll never eat again!
Friends visiting is always awesome because of how far away I live. Enjoy your day everyone ☀️
I’ve recently started adding healthy squirts of lemon juice to almost everything I cook (generally some kind of mix of pasta, rice, veg and meat/fish, flavoured with garlic onion and chilli), and it has been making a big difference. Before lemon juice I was adding vinegar for a while which helped, but lemon juice is making everything much more tasty
When life gives you lemons - use them on your food! To hell with the whole lemonade bit.
@Force_majeure123 @Seagoon_ on noodles I love to drizzle a little sesame oil and lemon juice over then after they’ve gone into my bowl
So on a road near where I live two petrol stations have newly opened within 900 metres of each other. This is on top of a petrol station that already existed 400 metres away from one of these stations.
And I thought to myself, to make that kind of investment in a new station you’d have to be pretty confident in the future of petrol in the medium term.
This is what makes me somewhat skeptical about the imminent switch to electric cars or hydrogen ones for that matter.
I think EVs mostly are bought by people who are in 2 car family who also own a petrol car, or those who only ever drive in the city. Most people want to do longer trips for weekends, holidays, visiting family etc. So if it’s your only car, it’s unlikely to be an EV. Other barriers are that they are more expensive for the same size vehicle, nowhere to charge if you live in an apartment, higher insurance costs. It’s gonna be a while until EVs outnumber combustion engines.
Let’s not forget the fact that once the battery dies it’s very expensive to replace. And the thing is it’s hard to factor in whether that’s worth it right now since nobody has a very good idea about how expensive batteries will be in 10 years time.
